The first time we compared our scars mine were so much deeper than yours, and there was still skin to spare on your arms, you could still wear cute sleeveless dresses and every day the sunlight could touch your skin, you were young and warm and full of light, there were infinite possibilities. I guess I envied you for that.
But soon the light was extinguished under your skin. Darkness in your eyes where before there were so many stars. You stopped eating your lunch at school. You started covering up your skin like it was a shameful secret. You were always taking those pills.
I blinked and when I opened my eyes you were gone.
I hope wherever you've gone there is no such thing as guilt or time. I hope they've let you hit the reset button and forget you'd ever known people like me. I hope your skin is full of sunlight again. I hope that there are so many stars in your eyes. I hope you're happy. I hope that you know now what peace can be. And I hope that somehow you might hear my apology. I loved you more than anything. Rest easy now. Sweet dreams.
I should have paid more attention. I shouldn’t have made living with this illness a competition. I should have held you closer. I should have said all of this sooner. I'm so sorry.
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