Affirmations | 03.03.15

I am constantly growing. I am constantly changing. I am reaching inward and holding on tight to anything that feels right. I am tearing out from inside anything too sharp, anything that cuts for all the wrong reasons. I am scraping together all the love I can find into small orbs of light I can hold in my hands. I am raising my voice. I am lifting my hands up toward the sky and asking for more and more and all. I am vibrating with such intention and I will direct it at anything that makes the blood boil under my skin. I am here and I am awake and I am alive and I have never been so ready and so excited and so terrified.

I Never Want To Stop

I never want to go anywhere without pressed flowers in my notebooks and I always want to have turquoise in my pockets and I never want to stop writing poetry and I will let it bleed me dry if that’s what it wants and I never want to stop staying up at night contemplating the stars and I never want to stop feeling every little thing like an anvil on my chest and I never want to stop agonizing over every little detail of absolutely everything and I never want to treat love like it is some big secret and I never want to stop filling up everyone I know with the same light they have poured into me and I want to keep growing stronger until I can swallow the sky and the sun and open my arms up and wrap myself around the Void until we become one with one another, until we can finally sleep.

Rest easy, sweet dreams.

glow

I fall in love with people who whistle or hum songs that have been stuck in their heads for weeks and walk with clumsy feet and bite their lips absentmindedly and whose eyes light up when they talk about their favorite things and like to jump in rain puddles and twirl their fingers in their hair and hold their coffee cups with both hands and blush at every compliment and unknowingly speak in poetry and practice their signatures and hold eye contact for so long it makes me uncomfortable.

reasons to remain unattached (3/?)

Even your name tastes like sugar on my tongue, but I am not used to anything that does not hurt; familiar are the things that sting and bite.

I don’t want to write any more crappy love poems

and I don’t want to write about daddy issues or eating disorders or blood or mental illness. What I really want to communicate is that we are all composed of bits of the Divine and so is color and so is sound and so is time and so is light and no soul in this world is ever truly alone and I want to take the Universe in my hands and tell it that I control it as much as it controls me and that all of this is just a part of my machine and if I died this very moment I would leave with so many questions that would only return to Dust.

reasons to remain unattached (2/?)

I am a vault of secrets, and you are the healing light

that will flush them all out. I have known since

I was very young that most things should be kept

up inside my head where they belong.

reasons to remain unattached (1/?)

Please don't leave me alone

Please leave me alone

Please just touch me I need to be touched

Please don't touch me I don't want to be touched right now